I just came back from my first CISV meeting of the year, and I came back totally energized, totally ready to go and talk to people and do things. I also recently had my first debate meeting of the year, and came away from that totally energized as well. It is these two firsts that got me to thinking about what gives me energy, and what allows me to be me, my energetic self. Last year I greeted people enthusiastically, and brightened when I saw them, just naturally, but this year I just wasn’t feeling it, however, right after these two events I was. Debate and CISV allow me to express myself, aspects of me that I don’t usually show, but want to more often, I am more confident and energetic in Debate, and in CISV, and I am more thoughtful and emotional in CISV.
We are different people at different times, and it is good to have the ability to shift, but it is also important to notice when you feel the best, the fullest, the most alive, and figure out how that happens. For me it happens in debate and CISV, and after that, for a little while, but I have a hard time carrying it over to the rest of my life. As hard as I try not to, I consistently segregate my life into boxes, being one person in one, and another in another, changing my masks, I need to stop, I need to live fully and authentically. I think that the way to do that is to look at the times of your life where you have the most fun, and try to spread those actions and feelings throughout your life.
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November 14, 2007 at 11:28 pm
Agree mostly, but still, it seems impractical to be the same person in all situations. I think there are a lot of times when we have to adjust our emotions and thinking process to suit our environment.